I’m staring at your face
your beautiful green eyes
the smile that rarely disappears
the soft billowy dirty blonde hair
your freckled cheeks
your smile lines
your perfect lips that inspire a million kisses

an old picture
from across the country
across the years
that captured you at your best

I’m hearing you
snoring gently
a room away
post-coital nap
coiled so loosely
in my bed
on my pillows

your hawaiian tattoo
stark against your porcelain skin
so peaceful and relaxed
cat curled at your spine

(I love the suddenness of your curves
and the softness of your edges)

I want to share everything with you
I want to experience everything with you
I want to feel everything with you
I want to travel with you
discover new places and music
get drunk and gluttonous
learn to cook and to dance
laugh and be astounded and awe-struck

see the northern lights
be struck speechless by the grand canyon
experience the wonders of ancient cultures
hear our favorite music in foreign theatres

dream big or dream home
or dream of both at once
because you feel like both

I’m staring at your face
your beautiful sleeping eyes
a smile hidden for the moment
replaced with what I will imagine is contentment
soft billowy dirty blonde hair splayed across a pillow
your freckled cheeks aglow in the soft light
your smile lines at rest
your perfect lips that inspire a million kisses

and I am whole
soft keyboards shifting effortlessly
cello beds laying a foundation
an echo of effortless but impossible guitar lines

and I am whole
streaming poetry that saved my life
lyrics that speak my thoughts better than I could ever hope to
Palahniuk repetitions and King campfire storytelling

and I am whole
and I am whole
and I am whole

I hope some part of me
is always where you’re at